"Choosing" a bank - Choice does NOT exist

So today after doing my usual morning routine, I went to deposit some money into my accounts, but before that I had to get some coins changed into notes, and I was standing on the pavement with 3 different banks in front of me. I was in a rush because I only had 20 minutes until I had to start collecting my team’s scores and get them typed up and emailed to head office. So I just reacted as a thought that “I choose to go with Lloyds” going into the bank that I perceived I was choosing, because I “trusted” Lloyds tsb the most which in my memory was a “good bank”. This choice of course was not real, it was me allowing pre-programming to exist as myself within the perception of having “freewill”

However once I started getting some coins changed into notes, I laughed at myself because I realised I was deceiving myself because I could see that In fact there was no decision, that I had made up this whole “choice” in my mind, believing I have the freewill to choose a bank, a perception that I have the “power” to choose, and to choose a bank I perceived as a “good bank” as the ”best bank” according to my memory, when in fact the choice did not exist. None of it is real – because In my experience choice never actually exists, because we humans are directed by our pre-programming, by our pre-designed mind, we are directed by what we think we can “trust”, what we believe to be “good” what we want to attract based on memory of what a being perceives to be attractive. It’s like we just keep thinking to ourselves consciously that we are choosing something as a form of “free choice” but over time we can clearly see that each person gravitates to specific points that have been given this giant value in the unconscious, through constant participation in conscious thoughts, feelings and emotions. So anyway I realised I was fearing Self-Honesty here, and after laughing to myself, I simply stated Delete and applied four count breathe stabilising myself.

So then the question would be does choice actually exist? The answer as this event in my day today clearly proves is no choice does not, and has never existed – only the illusion of choice as the mind has ever existed. And it’s fascinating because in Self-Honesty there exists no choice, there only exists doing what’s best for all, no excuses only the actuality of standing as the directive principle of unconditional support of myself as the physical. For instance, in honesty which is deception I honestly wanted to go to Lloyds bank according to a thought based in pre-programming, but in Self- Honesty there is no personal gain, no perceived choice according to pre-programming, there exists no value placed on any bank as more important than another, because of the realisation that all banks are equally supporting what’s here as a capitalistic system of debt, so no banks are different, more trustworthy, or more “positive for me” in absoulte self-interest, and to believe or pursue such an idea is purely Self-Decpetion of myself and clearly shows a lack of Self-Trust attempting to place my trust somewhere "out there" -

so I realise and understand that if I want to change some coins, then there is no need to think about it, no need to separate myself from the physical experience with mind generated experiences, no need to follow as accepting and allowing a perception of choice based in pre-programming. Because physically it does not matter at what bank I go to, it is of no difference, only in the mind is it different, in Self-Honesty all banks are exactly the same, so best for all to just get the coins changed, with no sepration of myself as thinking that i have the "power" as "freewill" to "choose" where and how I change the coins, because that “choice” that perception of "freewil" and "power" is not me as Life as who I really am as the physical, that is the pre-designed mind, and as such is not real. So I take Self-Responsibility here to correct this point no matter what, to remove choice from my world, aligning myself to what is real Here as the Physical, to stick to principle as what is best for all in Self Honesty I will break this point down into little pieces, and apply myself continuously until here no further, because i will not allow memory as the personalities of the mind to control me, i direct me, i direct who i am within any decision, so i will accept no less then that which results in whats best for all physically.

A Careless –Age. A Dolphin Cage of Abuse

So I’m looking here at a newspaper about a story where a few people on holiday where staying in a Turkish Hotel, and on the hotel grounds was a place called “Dolphin park” and in this park the hotel owners keep dolphins in small rusty wire cages of about 50ft squared, and most of the dolphins have extensive cuts, scratches and various lacerations on their bodies. Then the hotel owners charge hotel guests £70 a person to be towed around by these injured and in some cases heavily wounded dolphins. When confronted by an anonymous news reporter on a web forum,  the hotel/park owner Cenk Gokalep claimed that the dolphins “have fun” and “there is no need to worry” which is clear forked tongue bullshit, because these animals are obviously being exploited and abused in the name of money. And while the story goes on to say how various dolphins existing in living conditions like this are being saved every year,  what this story is not presenting, is the fact that very few animals are saved from abusive conditions like this. In fact quite the opposite, apparently according to various researches - the captive dolphin trade has been around since around the 60’s where the exploitation of marine mammals for entertainment purposes began accumulating. Some countries like Japan in areas like Taiji which is a fishing village that every year in the space of three months kills over 2,000 dolphins. And according to various figures on the internet, over 5 million Dolphin and small whales are killed every year, but I suspect this figure is in actuality a lot higher, captures for entertainment purposes have actually dramatically increased around the world, which is unacceptable in every way.

Now what we humans have a tendency to do is immediately blame somebody for situations that occur like this dolphin cage at this hotel. Most will blame Cenk the hotel owner, who does allow abuse, but in Self Honesty we clearly see that everybody accepts and allows the money system that allows for such an existence as this dolphin abuse to occur, we accept and allow the idea of exploiting another for our own amusement in self interest. Animals are extensively abused daily for the sake of people feeling entertained by them, so It is time we stop blaming ourselves as powerless to stop this, time we stop blaming others for why it is happening , it is time we accept and allow ourselves to take Self-Responsibility and to never again turn away from what is here, and to find a solution that’s best for all not matter what. it is time to realize and accept that we all encompass this planet together, we are all equally here , and thus of equal value, as all that is Here,  as Life as the Physical.       

We humans believe that we are so mighty in our minds over the physical, and we are running out of time to realise what we are allowing, that we are actually responsible for all of existence in its entirety, that we are all equal as Life, as the Creators, and that we have created an atrocity Here, we must remove the old system of debt, and install a new system of actually manifested Equality.  

In an equal money system points like the abusive conditions of this hotels dolphin park will not exist, there exists no such point as abuse to animals for any form of profit or exploitation in an equal money system. EVERY being is Equal as Life, and so must be equally afforded all basic needs of dignity; animals and plants are included in what we are doing. We are the Equal Life Foundation, we are here now together in unity, and we are the voices of those beings that cannot speak up and defend themselves, we stand for the Equality of ALL life on Earth, taking Self-Respons-ability to manifest a real practical Heaven on Earth. So if you really care about another as yourself, if you really care about ending suffering in this world for Dolphins or anyone, and you really care about making a difference in this life, then research and  stand up for your-self as Life. Join us.

£20,000 a year for life saving treatment

So I’m just looking at a story in the newspaper about a 40 year old woman who has the hereditary disease Alpha -1 Antitrypsin Emphysema which is pre-programmed within and as her DNA, an extensive genetic protein deficiency, which in short can have a few different effects on the human body, but the main consequent effect of this condition, is that it leaves a being fighting for breathe, also having extremely weakened and similar lungs to a smoker of 80 a day even if they don’t or have never smoked. And the person also requires an oxygen tank and mask within hands reach for around 17-24 hours of a day, where even carrying shopping bags can cause breathlessness attacks and sometimes even stopping breathing completely for some minutes and thus, the need for physical support from an oxygen tank very quickly is required.

Now my mother has a disease which is totally different, however my mind reacted and gravitated to the story, interesting - but anyway the point I also found interesting in this story, is that the treatment this woman requires which is a double lung transplant and a medicine called Prolastin, which would maintain her health, will also enable this woman to lead a much more practical life, giving her the opportunity to have a fuller lifespan. But the Physical support basis structure of all Health  service industries is totally fucked currently, because the mechanisms are not set up in a way to proliferate and support  life, so this treatment which can have side effects will cost a massive £20,000 for one year’s supply of Prolastin, which is a lot of money, and these kind of double lung transplants often can go wrong anyway where 1 in 6 people can and do die, so even with a chance of dying during the operation, this being must for some reason now have to pay money to have the physical support that’s required to be taken for the person to have the possibility of some extra years living from an already shortened life span. Majority of people in this world cannot possibly afford such a fee, because the monetary system is not set up in a way to support the physical it only support Polarity friction equations as Rich and Poor, Winners and Losers, Good and Bad, and as we realize in Self Honesty – What’s Best for Every-Self as Every Being in REALity is Not even considered Here, so what is the solution to this?  - - an Equal Money System is The only Answer that’s best for all to this clear Abuse and Inequality currently Here in this World , a real practical liveable Solution, a system of Actual Honour and Dignity for All Life Here on Earth. 

This story is totally unacceptable, this Capitalist money system we exist in turns the treatment people need which should be basic free support available for Any person in Any country into a super lollipop you need to find a way to bet on to win, finding a way to save up and get to the possible saviour, dangled in front of the being like a carrot on a stick – Abuse.  many, Many, MANY, MAN-Y people die every moment, every day from starvation and poverty, over  3+ Billion people live on a daily support of less than £1.00, which is Bullshit, trust me test it, I have before and my experiments never last long, because of how little I am actually able to buy to support myself physically with through the day with £1.00, because no being in this world can support themselves effectively on £1.00 a day. And what is clear from the current system is that any being that can afford this kind of fees of £20, 000 for any medicinal treatment is in a position to do so because the being has the monetary support required as a member of the Elite, which is not acceptable.

So anyway the story in the paper ended with a phone and website where you can go and donate money for this being to be able to afford this £20,000 operation, which is ridiculous and totally unacceptable that this is existing. Because in a Equal Money system it will be the end of stories like this, because every single being will be offered the highest standard of healthcare possible for free, which in this current system would equate to the most expensive private hospital standards of care being given to all unconditionally for free if a being requires it. So this is one of many reasons why I am one vote for an Equal Money System, where medical healthcare costs for any treatment or operation in any country will cease to exist, where only the highest standards are maintained for free for ALL. and if you are not or do not know what im talking about, then research here: http://equalmoney.org/  participate and join the forums, find out ways to implement Real Solutions that are Best for All Worldwide, contribute to and be the manifestation of the Equal Life Foundation. Lets expand in Self Honesty, and build to an Equal Money system Here: http://desteniiprocess.com 

A World of Shit. Shut - It and Sort it

Fucking funny shit - shitting, well the act of shitting in itself is not amusing, and this world is in a shit state of Abuse currently, but how we humans react to shit is fascinating and amusing to a certain degree, because I mean everybody does it, everybody requires to do it, if we are a human, a mammal, a fish, a reptile, or a bird then guaranteed we shit at some point during our day which is the body recycling and equating what is to be taken from the food we eat and distributed around the body supporting us unconditionally, and what is offloaded as the shit that which is not needed to be kept inside the body – a sort of organic/chemical factory of a sort. And to a certain extent plants also shit, such as the Venus flytrap plants that do produce a kind of shit after they eat their prey, although most plants just rely on bacteria to produce the necessary enzymes to break everything down.

Anyway its interesting because we humans have this fear of shit which we are consciously aware of, but its starting point is in the unconscious, which can be seen in peoples behavioural patterns when we are around shit for example, when we see a shit on the floor when we are walking around, we automatically attempt to avoid it, because the shit has been accepted and allowed by us humans to be defined as “bad” in the unconscious. Or when you see people having to clean something that has shit on it, it’s like this pulling away in our physicality, attempting to touch the shit as little as possible, fearing being poisoned by this shit, which is equal as us as the physical, which is then actually fearing ourselves, fearing being poisoned by ourselves, fearing being poisoned to death by ourselves, fearing death.

For over a year I have been looking at the reactions that come up within me in relation to shit, then stopping my participation in the reaction and remaining stable here within and as breathe, and I have had extensive support from my dogs and my son, because they all shit when they are around me, and I require to clean it up no matter how I feel about it. Now I used to always have this negative emotion of fear, and annoyance come up whenever I had to clean my sons or my dogs shit up, especially if it was very runny, or there was a lot of it, or it was a brighter than expected - which would be clear in my physicality as I would be like wincing and having a strained look on my face, while attempting to keep the shit as far away from me as possible while cleaning it, touching it as little as possible out of fear, and a self-definition in the unconscious that the shit was “bad” “wrong” and “negative” in some way. Then I would experience this feeling of Relieving thankfulness whenever I didn’t have to clean up the shit, because my mum would instead pick up the dogs shit, or my sons mum would change my sons shitty nappy instead of me, that it was “good”, “right” and “positive” that I didn’t have to do it – This was of course creating a polarity within me, because I was defining not cleaning up shit as positive, and cleaning up the shit as negative, blaming shit for my own instability, when in fact it was never about the shit, it was all me accepting and allowing myself to react within and as the mind to the shit in separation of myself, because I wasn’t remaining here within and as actual stability as breathe in self-honesty where we are able to actually clean shit with no reactions of the mind allowed to be triggered and separate us from what is required to be corrected here.

Also I have looked at the reactions towards my own shit, where I noticed also about a year back that I was reacting to my shit, getting the same negative emotions of fear and annoyance within and as the mind, whenever I had a shit that was difficult to shift due to constipation, and again this feeling of relieving thankfulness within my mind whenever my shit was sliding out easily with no friction, defining myself according to separation in polarity perceiving constipation as “bad” and easy sliding shit as “good”. Anyway it’s been very interesting working on myself in relation to shit because all these reactions, ideas, definitions about shit I had formulated in my mind according to various pieces of information I had received in my life, which became knowledge I stored and defined myself according to, totally unaware that I was existing in separation of myself.

At the time i actually belived all these reactions and shit in my mind to be real, however after realisation that it is not, then continuous application for the past year and continuing to push myself, I have gotten to the point now where I’m not reacting, because I do not accept or allow my own or any other beings shit to cause reactions inside me, I remain totally stable within and as what is here as the physical in self-honesty. The smell, the texture, the colour, the amount makes no difference to me, none of that moves me to a state of mind possessed instability anymore, because what requires to be done requires to be done, and that’s it. So I am now able to clean up my shit, my sons shit, my dogs shit, the pigeons shit on my shed roof, without any point coming up within doing it, I do not allow myself to separate myself from the physical by going into the mind, I enjoy supporting myself as life as the physical by remaining here within and as breathe within cleaning the shit, so that I am now able to clean the shit as effectively as possible, because I’m not carrying any excess mind-shit in relation to the shit I’m cleaning to those not walking this process of equality and oneness it may sound “strange” but I actually enjoy cleaning up shit now.

So this world is shitty, in a total state of shit, 3 billion plus below the poverty line that can’t even shit on a toilet or have toilet paper in many, many circumstances, these beings cannot have the time to sort their own mind-shit out because they have no monetary support to do so. And nobody said cleaning and correcting this world would be easy, or smell “good” because it will take hard work and discipline and we can support ourselves in our process by removing all points of the mind in relation to shit – stop reacting to cleaning this shit, because we are all equally designing the shit that is allowed here every day, there is no escaping it, just as there is no escaping the toilet seat at least once a day, or if you’re a catwalk model maybe once a week lol - so we must take Self-Responsibility Here to not allow shit in our world, or any reactions in relation to the shit we create individually. Do not let the back chat and the unconscious separate you from the shit thats here, we must all stand together as one and sort ourselves as this shit out in a way that’s best for all, because in an equal money system All have the necessary support to enjoy having a shit on a clean toilet seat, and also have the time and space to sort out their own individual mind-shit until it is fully removed from this world – Let’s Get Real about Shit!

Equal Money and the Microchip

So the microchip, fascinating, such a cool piece of technology that to me is vital to work in unison with an Equal Money System, and even more fascinating that so many beings seem to think it is necessary to fear something such as this. I mean obviously people connect all kinds of beliefs, thoughts, fears and perceptions in their minds to microchips, mainly around fears of being watched by others, illuminati/secret societies, population control, or believing it is "evil" and immoral, and Christians usually fear it so much because they perceive it to be "the beasts mark" lol, people want to blame microchips for why they are fearing them, without realising and understanding that the fear is not real, and is all generated by through the beings mind by reacting to the microchip, but me personally i have never really seen a problem with microchips whatsoever, ive always found it very cool. It’s has always made so much sense to me, to keep things in order for everybody in relation to documentation, i mean i can remember being about 13 and losing my passport before i went to France, and i remember thinking to myself that if only i had my passport information stored on a chip in my hand then i wouldn’t need to carry this passport around in the first place.

I mean the microchip solution abolishes so many problems in general, it ensures that all beings are equal in their birth right to be supported with equal basic necessity credits, it ensures that children do not go missing anymore, it ensures that all crimes can be solved very quickly - for example if a person is killed, then a super computer that all chips would be linked to would immediately know when the beings life was ended, and exactly what chips were in the vicinity, which would save so much time and resources that is currently wasted by police and government agencies trying to track down killers as TV programmes like criminal minds indicates, which inevitably would eventually eliminate crime for good. It ensures that people can be reunited with long lost family members, it ensures that a being will always know how far they are from the house they live in no matter how far it is, by installing a chip on every person’s house as well as the one their hand syndicating the two, ensuring that all beings are never being lost not knowing how to get home.

Also as i stated in my vlog i just made, microchips would end the unnecessary deforestation of trees to create passports, travel documents, birth certificates, wage slips, mail, paper money etc, and any other unnecessary pieces of paper, so any being that doesn’t support the microchip solution is just limited by their own mind generated fears, and they are totally unaware that they are actually supporting deforestation of trees, thus supporting the abuse of life. So many trees turned into paper is wasted on so many irrelevant points that doesn’t need to be made every day, it’s difficult to find an exact number due to many countries that do not track such figures, but it is estimated in various sources that over 11 Billion trees are cut down every year, so it is clear that deforestation is such a massive industry that generates huge profits for a few super wealthy, and provides jobs for so many poor people in south America and other areas who have no choice but to keep cutting down trees if they want to put food on the table. This must be stopped as simple as that, because it is totally unacceptable abuse of life, and the microchip solution proposed in an equal money system will eliminate the need for so much paper worldwide.

The point of being watched and "spied" on by the government seems to be a massive unconscious fear in society, which is completely pointless because as has been explained, we are already micro chipped in various ways, as with mobile phones, laptops, cars, bank accounts, TVs, and our very DNA. But it is no secret that governments in this capitalistic system only exist to enforce separation as what is accepted and allowed here, to control what standard of media, education, healthcare, housing and food is available to people and to create profit in an uncaring self-interested manner, purposely attempting to entrap people as guilty until proven innocent with gagging orders/legislations/acts/fines etc.
Subtly and secretly always inflating prices and taxing the middle/lower class of people more and more every day, which forces people to cut corners and participate in crime to get by. So a huge amount of people in the middle/lower are unconsciously always in a state of fear about the government finding out about any corner cutting that the being is participating in. Many people consciously deny that they fear the government, but it is easy to notice in people’s behaviour for example so many people when they see a police officer will attempt to turn the other way and avoid getting too close to the officer because of fearing the crime that they are doing being exposed. So the current worldwide governments certainly abuse microhip technology, but when the government is based on equality through the equal life party, then people will begin to realise that it is best for all to now openly allow the government to microchip everyone, and let them know where we all are at all times.

From what i can see every time i look at the microchip working in conjunction with an equal money system, is that it will fundamentally change the way we co-exist on this planet, because all movements will be known, all beings will be known, who each person is in the system and what allowances they have had will always be known - in short the microchip is a simple common sense solution to many problems that occur in this monetary system, and any being that opposes and fear the microchip is only fearing making a change in this world, fearing themselves, fearing to let go of their idea of themselves, supporting what is here as the current state of humanity as separation as the mind and capitalism, exactly the same as a being that fears shaving their own hair. It’s time for all beings in this world to let go of their fear of microchips, and realise that this technology when all ideas, beliefs, perceptions and fears are removed can be utilized in a way that is best for all.

Reacting like a vampire to the Christian cross

So as I’m doing some shopping the other day, while waiting, i could hear the woman at the till talking with another customer about how good charity work is to help the poor, that she prays for the poor every night, and when i came to pay for my weekly shopping, i saw this woman at the counter had a pretty large gold Christian cross necklace on. I became unstable and a reaction occurred immediately in my mind with the thoughts "stupid fucker you are not a Real Christian if you support charity" and "god will not save you" when i saw this cross these thoughts came up very quickly, I also experienced a feeling of slight disdain towards this woman, and very much like a vampire from a film, i physically reacted with a quiet hissing sound under my breath lol, I daydreamed for a second as a picture in my mind of the being finding out god is not real one day, then I kept looking at this cross now and then while packing my shopping away, thinking about the words she said, and how much I wanted to say something about her idea of charity and praying, but I knew it would cause some friction, then I realized what I was doing, so I laughed for a moment, then I just stabilized myself here through four count breath.

Then after i paid and left, on the way back to the car i noted the point down, that I was judging this woman, instead of just reflecting the point back to myself, and seeing that I have also been in this belief before – that wearing trinkets that enforce belief is acceptable in some way, that through charity work and meditating on “healing” poverty with thought we can sort this world out, which is a very fucked up belief to have, but one that many beings in this world share. Now religion and this kind of cult like behaviour putting value in little trinkets, is completely ridiculous, totally unacceptable, and obviously supports separation as what is accepted and allowed within this world system currently, however it is totally unacceptable that these beliefs and cult practices should affect me in anyway.
So why did I react? Within judging this being, I am only judging myself, its showing me that I’m reacting to something my mind is perceiving as different as something as outside of myself, blaming this persons beliefs, blaming this Christian cross object she was wearing for why I am reacting. There’s the key, why I am reacting, because in actual fact I am only reacting to myself here, I am only separating myself from what is here by not taking self-response-ability.

I can see when I look at the point, in my mind, that there is still this thought construct existing that I have accepted and allowed to exist as a personality. It’s an idea that I have formulated through participation in thoughts that religious/spiritual people are somehow “more responsible” then other people for the poverty and starvation that exists in this world, which in self-honesty is absolute nonsense, because all are equally responsible for what exists here, within and without as this one physical reality. And I can see that when I look in my memory that this idea that religious groups/spiritual cults are more responsible than the average person in the street, is because of all the extensive information I researched and accumulated as knowledge when I was deeply into conspiracy theories between 4-8 years ago. Because at the heart of every conspiracy theory I researched, was always a secret group that did specific rituals, sacrifices to gods and prayer/mantras, and within the information would always be explained that this group is single handedly responsible for withholding secret knowledge and all the suffering existing in the world. And at the time I allowed myself to be defined as “Marley the guy who knows everything about freemasons, cults, religions” I mean when I was involved in gang activity my nickname in the gang was “mason” and my anger at these secret religious groups was part of why I participated in crime because I wanted to blame someone, I wanted to find a way to amass money, arms and more people, so I could find a way to go and behead the leaders of these groups. I would always go off on heated energetic ramblings for hours about how evil these groups were, and how they were to blame for everything that was wrong in the world, and I would go off on these ramblings whenever I would hear a religious person talk, or see a picture of the pope, or some religious leader, or a picture of god defined as man with a beard, or something as small as a cross that someone was wearing, so these were the various triggers, and I used to feed into these triggers, where I would verbally attack whoever I saw supporting the religion/cult, which is part of why when I first found Desteni, I reacted in fear, attacked and blamed, because I viewed every group as the same without research in many cases. The only groups I liked the sound of was groups that spoke about love/light, the idea of god being this “cosmic galactic light” that we all had, it sounded so attractive at the time that I just wanted to start doing it, which actually did help me from one perspective by distracting and detaching myself from the gang, but obviously only fucked me further into the mind.

So anything that wasn’t spouting love and light mantras I viewed as “evil” according to polarity within and as my mind. So all the major established worldwide religions I saw as evil that I wanted to destroy, when in actual fact I was just destroying myself and everything around me. So when I first came across Desteni without even researching, I just reacted in fear, and defined as a part of the new world order, I actually thought at the time that Desteni was just another sect or order in the worldwide freemasonic hierarchy lol. But I was fascinated which is obviously why I continued to research Desteni in detail and eventually apply what is offered, but it was fascinating for the first 6 months – a year after finding Desteni, looking at how my mind was attempting to clutch onto love and light, and as physical reality became clearer and clearer as what is accepted and allowed, it was so cool watching love and light beliefs totally disappear from my reality. However reacting in disdain and extreme judgment to a being who is spouting religion is clearly still existing within me as me as this situation at the shop showed me, because although I didn’t start verbally attacking her as I very likely would have done once upon a time in another lifetime, I was still reacting inside. So time to pull out my self-application weaponry and start crippling this personality until here no further.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to religious trinkets that people wear. I realise and understand that this is an unnecessary separation of myself, by reacting to that which is already me as this one physical reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as conscious enslavement as separation by allowing religious people or objects trigger me into a reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge religious people as being “more responsible than anyone else for the state of the world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to attack another being in my mind because they are religious, sinking vampire teeth into the being in the mind in secret.

I forgive myself that I have not realised until recently that by reacting in fear and judging another on the basis of their beliefs, that I am in fact separating myself from the being, that I am separating myself from what is here, by not looking in my own life where I have accepted the same belief to wear trinkets and hope for a magical solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have an argument with a being because I know they are actually talking shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an argument with a being within and as energy as the mind to dominate the being and win and argument just to enforce my ego, instead of supporting the being physically, which is totally unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect an argument with a deeply religious person to desire in total separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite a being by formulating and connecting a picture of the being in my mind the day they find out god isn’t real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame religion for why the world is the way it is, which is only me accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-response –ability, which is not acceptable in anyway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mind that I am smarter and greater then a religious person because I know how to apply myself an take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to create a polarity as the mind within this belief of defining religious people as “bad” and destonians as “good”.

I forgive myself that I have suppressed my back chat, by not dealing with this point, and just continually allowing the trigger sequence of events, saying nothing with my mouth, but speaking words in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my instability in relation to religion, to justify judging religion, because it has and does deceive so many people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect religious people to “bad” and destonians to “good” in my mind through participating in the mind.

I forgive myself that i have not applied myself immediately and repeatedly on this point of judging religious people in my mind as soon as as it comes up, but instead festering, and continually allowing this kind of vampire reaction in relation to religion.

I forgive myself that I have repeatedly entertained backchat in my head that religious people and religion is more to blame than anything else for the state of this world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to entertain that which is not actually tangible as physical reality as a thought to judge religious people.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame anything for why this world is the way it is, when in fact all are equally responsible, equally here as the physical, equally enslaved within a system that supports the mind consciousness system.